As some of you may have noticed, I haven’t blogged in quite awhile. It started in October with the anniversary of my father’s death. I was doing okay but then the tragedy of it all just sort of hit me like a house dropping out of the sky. On top of that, I had started a new job and was working two jobs at the same time which left very little time to think much less the energy to string words together in a coherent manner.
But soon that too passed. I quit one of the jobs, recovered somewhat emotionally and set about getting back into the blogging groove. Only I didn’t. I was working on my template and planning on what I was going to do for the next year when I was struck with a sense of Deja Vu. And upon examining it, I realized that I had done this same exact thing before, many, many, many times. Somehow I had gotten stuck in a horrible rut that I cannot seem to escape.
Then my internet connection died and I have been without internet service since almost the beginning of the year and after the first few days of withdrawal, I realized that I didn’t really miss it. Yes, I did miss my friends and reading about what was happening in their lives but that was pretty much it. I can’t really explain it but a series of coincidences (one door closing another opening kind of thing) just made me realize that it is time for this chapter of my life to end.
It won’t be immediate. I still need to figure out what to do with the websites I have built. I really would hate to see all of that work I did go to waste. I’ll probably leave this one up with some of my best posts for the sake of posterity. Who knows maybe after a long extended break I’ll be ready to give it go again.
Bigs Bear Hugs 
13 Comments
January 12, 2008 at 5:25 am
When I was cleaning up my blogroll the other day I saw your blog name and just started wondering what had happened. I’m glad to know that you’re well. I can understand the need to leave or at least the need to move ahead with life and find out what more there is. You take care and be happy.
January 12, 2008 at 7:51 am
Ah, Daria… While I’m glad to see your post, I’m sad to see that you’re leaving. But I understand. We all reach a point where we know it’s time to leave the party before things start going south on us.
I do hope you’ll stay in touch (you have one of my e-mail addresses, and I’ll be happy to give you my “official” address if you’re interested.
You’ve been an important part of my blogging life and I am thankful to have found you out there in the big ol’ web. You have wonderful writing skills, and I sincerely hope you’ll keep up with that even if you’re not blogging (and feeding that part of my addiction…)
Sometimes it’s hard to let go. There are days when I just want to chuck it all and walk away, but someone always comes along and says something that keeps me hanging on just a little longer. I do know that one of these days, I won’t go back, but I’m not quite there yet.
Yet.
I almost envy your ability and maturity to finally pull yourself from that grasp and move on. Gosh, I have the feeling that I’m babbling. It must be time to hit the hay (after I check some of my e-mails… yeah, I’ll probably NEVER be able to give THAT up…
Hugs,
Karen
January 13, 2008 at 4:29 am
Daria, there must be something about you. I have on occasion checked to see what was new with you and I know that you and I have emailed each other often.
But something drew me to your site today. Like I said, there must be something special about you.
I am so close to you, and you have done so much for me. How do I express my thanks for this?
Anyway, I wanted you to know that whatever decisions you make, as always, I stand behind you and support you. And I have to tell you while I am at it, that you have the most remarkable writing skills and they are so special and on or off the net, many know this. So many will miss your humor, you knowledge, your just YOU.
You know where I am and I will always be in touch. Did anyone ever tell you that you remind them of an angel? If not, well it is true at least from me.
I do understand, and I am so sorry I am being so emotional about all of this, but that is just me.
Like Karen, I am babbling, and I hope you understand. Hugs and much love, always. Katie
January 13, 2008 at 4:51 pm
@ Jayne
Thank you Jane. It’ll be interesting to see where this fork in the road takes me. Who knows it might lead me right back here.
@ Ms. Karen
I’m glad to have met you too. You have been invaluable in helping me become comfortable with expressing my sometimes weird ideas. I will continue writing as I want to complete the projects I started. I’m not sure if I’ll submit them for publication but I just like the idea of finishing what I started.
You are a fabulous, fabulous writer and don’t let anyone try to take that from you. I would say that I’m going to miss your writings but I’ll probably stop by your site every chance I get for MY fix! LOL.
@ Katie
Oh Katie, you are going to make me cry. You truly are a great friend and we have been through a lot together. I’m not dropping off the face of the earth although now that I really read that post it kind of sounds like it. I’m only an email away if you need anything.
I’m really, really, really happy that RFN is doing so good. I knew it would with you there. You have a warm and wonderful personality that makes people feel at home that it was only a matter of time before their membership base grew. I feel like I can talk to you about anything and do!
Okay so now I’m starting to babble. I love all of you and again I’m just an email away. Yeah, Ms. Karen, I don’t think I’ll ever get away from that
Big Hugs
January 14, 2008 at 1:04 am
Hi Daria, I’m sorry to hear about your circumstance and about your news to leave the blogosphere.
It was wonderful having you here and I do hope and pray that you come back when you are ready.
Thanks for your friendship Daria.
God bless you.
Rolando
January 14, 2008 at 11:42 pm
I’ve been wondering where you’ve been. I’ll miss you when you go!
January 16, 2008 at 7:40 am
Daria, I’m so sorry to hear the news of what have happened to you and that you are leaving! And which makes me feel so sad! You are a so kind and good friend, and it was a great honor for me know you here. Oh, God, why kind people always suffer this! Sorry, I don’t know how to express my thoughts clearly in this language! Anyway, I hope everything can be doing well! Please take care!
January 23, 2008 at 2:22 pm
@ Rolando
Thank you for your friendship and your wonderful posts. I’ll still stop in from time to time to check them out.
@ Stephanie
Yeah, it’s just time to move on. Keep up the writing and never give up.
@ Victor
Thank you Victor, you’ve been a good friend too. If you need help or just want to talk, I’m only an email away.
Hugs Daria
February 4, 2008 at 10:48 pm
I am very sorry to have learned about your loss and the subsequent loss of you blog. At the same time, I found your bloggers guide to comment etiquette quite useful and have linked to it from the “terms of use” page for all of the blogs I manage. You you mind if I reprinted the original material directly on each terms of use page with proper attribution and a link to your dariablack.com domain name?
February 5, 2008 at 2:11 am
Hi Drew,
Thank you for stopping by and for the beautiful comment. You are welcome to reprint the article on your site. I’m glad you found it useful and wish you much success with your site.
February 5, 2008 at 4:34 pm
Daria
Sad to hear about your recent loss.
And, although we’ll miss you online, it’s not an altogether bad thing to move on when you need to do so. Rivers change course for good reasons, and don’t often return to their old channels. If you’re moving forward, though, it can’t be all bad.
Good luck in your writing, and I hope to hear from you again.
Aaron
February 8, 2008 at 3:06 am
Hi Daria:
This is my first time here. As a newcomer, I first must say that I send you my sympathies for the loss of your father. And as a blogger, I understand sometimes you just have to step away. It sounds like you are very intuitive and trust your gut as you are. As for the blogs, you should really export them and self publish them as short books. That way they will always remain with you…Enjoy your new journey!
February 9, 2008 at 2:25 pm
@ Aaron
Thank you Aaron. I hear what you are saying. At first I felt anxious about the change but now that I’ve put things in motion, I feel really good about it and have actually been able to work on some of my stories. I think being online so much was actually holding me back.
Anyway, feel free to keep in touch. It was wonderful being able to get to know you.
@ Kali
Thank you so much for stopping by and for the sympathies. It’s been rough but it’s getting better. I moved all of the posts here to the free WordPress hosting but I’m not sure what I’m going to do in the long term. That’s a good idea though. I’ll give it some thought.
Hugs to all
Daria